Crowded Mind ( Aqwa )

Versatile Blogger Award

2011-12-13T23:57:00.004+02:00

Mrs khadija hororing my blog and another wonderful Libyan female bloggers We've been awarded the Versatile Blogger Award for Libyan bloggarettes।

I am so honored,Thank you so much

fe aman Allah

2011-11-30T22:26:00.005+02:00

Over the past years during my study in the college we have been forced to attend that such a boring subject, What they call it wa3i seiasi which it's talk about the Green Book !!In the begining of every studing season we used to attend then we escaped from the lectures,they threatened us with the marks and exams, I remember so many horrible fights with the Doctors of this subject
Today I went to attend a lecture for Dr Mahmoud Jebril in my college,I couldn't believe my eyesIt was very difficult to find a place for my car, the man who is resposible about the door didn't let me enter in the begining he told me that there is no place for me inside,finally he let me in and this is the surprise
It's really interesting amazing and hilarious feeling when you know that every body in my country want to be educated and want the best for their country , In the old days we used to be drugged to that boring lectures, But now it's totally different .I joined the project of my new Country because I believe that “ everyone knows everything, everyone builds everything'”

fe aman Allah

2011-11-28T21:33:00.004+02:00

Congratulation Libya ♥
I just believe that Mr. El Keep did his best for this new goverment and I believe that so many people will never ever accept this goverment ( which it's a good sign ) I have faith on those people who will represent my country , Lets make dua'a and give chance for them to let our country stand againDuring our revolution alot of activities started in Benghazi, Activities I've never seen in my city before, My activities during that time was the hospital,watching the news or going to the court drawing children's face with our flag or anything they want that made me better like I'm doing something for this wounded country .
I have some thing I did in March to express my feeling toward Qatar Tunisia Egypt France, at that time I didn't have the dark red for Qatar I chose the wrong colour and
I'm sure people will get mad , and they will think that it's Bahrain but It's not
It's Qatar

feaman Allah

A Doctor on the front lines (A War Diary )

2011-11-11T01:36:00.020+02:00

He's back safe & healthy .. finally he's with us again !
He is one of the best examiners, One of the best doctors and he is like everything for every
Cardiac patient ..
You guys must be wondering what the heck she's talking bout ?
Idriss Ahmed Abdallah Al-Nacharah is a 53-year-old Libyan cardiologist and father of four.
He was arrested on 16 March 2011 by Kaddafi's forces while providing humanitarian assistance to victims injured in clashes in Ajdabya.
He was arrested after Ajdabya Hospital was bombed by pro-Kaddafi forces.
His family had suffered greatly, waiting for his return, they were scared,But they always had that tiny hope that he
might be one of the survivors .
There were horrible rumors about him and other Doctors were missing too
Hamdolli'allah Dr Idris is home and I got the chance today to talk to him ,I told him that we didn't forget him in our duaa.
now I am So happy for him and his family
But still we feel awfully sorry and sad for those doctors who were missing with him and didn't make it.
they've been killed by Kaddafi's forces like Dr Ali Al darat who came from Germany to help his city ( Misrata ) and some how they Kidnapped him They took him to Tripoli
where they killed him, he was a father of 3 boys ! Its ridculisy insane how the Gaddafii regime was acting !
Under what condition its legal to murder a doctor who was in the frontlines ! seeing a person who died because the government decided to kill him because he happened [to be] at the frontline God's sake!! that was too much
he was trying to help the injured people and he was killed because of that .
No one could believe it !!

Dr Mohamed Al majbery from my batch but didn't graduate yet , a very humble Dr from Ajdabia didn't leave the eastern frontlines,..Arrested by Gaddafi's forces in August with another Doctors In 18th of october they found the Martyred in Sirt

Dr Hasan El fesi from Benghazi medical student in his last year didn't leave the frontlines, I remember him very well
In the 20th of Feburary, The hospital was crowded with wounded people (somebody with his leg cut off others
without hands ) all of that was from the attack on the security battalions, I never cried at the hospital by this way,
I never saw that type of injury in my lifeDuring my crisis of crying Hassan came to me it was almost 10 pm , he was shy and polite, Quietly asked Doctora how can I help you ?
he was like an angel sent for me from the heaven and one of the known faces from the library's days
I gave him the bed numbers of some patients and he moniterd their vital signs, Since that day I didn't see Hassan anymore untill I saw his picture in the facebook as a Martyr
In April Hassan went to the frontlines didn't leave it, And In the 30th of september Hassan martyred in Sirt
when he was helping the wounded people , after being injured from the explosions, Went under 2 major surgeries
at the night in Ras Lanoof's hospital but he didn't make it ,He chose the heaven and didn't want to be
in this world left us left the medical field left the college and left a nice memories with his family and friends
RIP Hassan
Another loyal Doctor from Benghazi is Dr Abd Allah Elmegerbi a surgeon in Al Hawari's hospital Arrested in August during his work in Bin Jawad , And in the 28th of October his family knew that
Dr Abduallah burried in Misrata when they couldn't recognize him

Dr Jamal Badah 48 years Graduated from Canada
MartyRed in Zawaia in March when he was helping the wonded people in Martyrs' Square Buried in Martyrs' Square, but after the fall of the city, Kaddafi's forces opened his grave and took his body .
My whole diary will never end about what this man done to my country
Kaddafi got what he deserved and is now left only to his Lord for his final judgement
And Doctors will be always there , doing their job and treating people in need of medical care, They will sacrifice their lives
for their country .. they are Doctors of Libya.
feaman Allah

No mercy for a merciless tyrant

2011-10-27T20:35:00.011+02:00

Everything bout me still (remembering,talking,thinking ) bout what my Country suffered in the past 8 months
Everything bout me still can not accept what happened to my beloved people
I'm free now , I'm experiencing the freedom .The freedom that our young,brave heroes paid their lives for us .
I wont never forget that day , the day when they started creating facebook pages calling for the 17th of Feb
deep inside me I knew it ,I just knew that it will cost a lot of blood .
well , most people things that the Libyan Revolution started on the 17th of Feb , But in fact it all started in the 15th of Feb just right from here " Benghazi "
They were a tough days ,suffering in the hospitals , it was an unforgettable experience for us the doctors .
when the foreign medical staff left Benghazi in the very beginning of the revolution ,it was much harder , but we managed it .we were much stronger than the situation it self . we were calling out for volunteers ,and H'amduallah volunteers came from almost every corner n Benghazi ,they did an excellent job helping us , some were cleaning ,some were cooking for the patients , and wont forget those who were donating their blood .
We were all one hand . we stood in the face of the bullets ,we just said NO more Geddaffi and that's why we liberated it in just 5 days !
Oh' My Lord I wont forget lot of days in the Blessed revolution ....
I wont forget the " No-Fly-Zone" day
I wont forget the Black Saturday of Benghazi " 19th of March
I wont forget the day when we lost 4 of our neighbours in the very same day !
I wont forget when we lost connection with our relatives in Tripoli for months
I have so many stories to share with you in the upcoming days In'shallah
So many stories...cause so many tears
Thanks Allah it's over and he died ..he just deserve it
Because :
No mercy for a merciless tyrant

fe aman Allah

The Union

2010-04-23T10:30:00.004+02:00

They are changing every every every thing ..sigh

Missed you all

fe aman Allah

It's me...

2010-03-05T17:06:00.004+02:00

It's been a long time since my last update...

As usuall my excuse is my study,takes all of my time & some times you feel like you want to stay away from certain things you love for awhile one of them my blog,thats why I deactivated it... many times I worried I would never write anything again but el 7amdo li Allah & I am steadily reclaiming my power now,training my hand, teaching my fingertips to write again ..I love how Lebeeya is always asking me to start blogging again....

yesterday it was one of the best days in this year ..it was my picture day of our batch..
I shall not forget, I have been waiting for it since long time.. I felt so happy & proud of my self.

I used to see others take this picture but the feeling when you stand & you try it .. too many words wont get out but only one thing....That was the best & didn't want it to finish but it did & only left nice pics & awesome l♥vely sweet memories ...

My finals will start in May ensha Allah,I try to post some thing mara mara but forgive me my fellow bloggers if I didn't

fe aman Allah

Gates of memories will never close how much I missed you all

2009-07-12T22:00:00.001+02:00

I miss you Picoo,DTD,ES,Lee,Maysoon,Khadija,Mr.Madi,Anglo,Akak,Brave heart ...ect

I miss reading your posts & comments

You can not imagin how sad to be away from this world which I used to feel that I belong to it

I just do not know what had happened to me !!

it was about week from my finals & I was so exhausted ,tired

seriously I was out of mind ..deactivation for every thing...

From Dec to March I was fighting & fighting at the finals ..

What awesome days full of up & downs during the paper & clinic & the oral...

It seems great , the feeling that you feel like ALMOST you become a Dr ,you can stand infront of profisional Doctors & discuss with them different issues , your history,examination,investigatin & treatment..ect..

Lucky me... on March 09, I have managed to pass threfore I moved to my last year (did I say LAST) yes it is my last year ..sigh alot of work alot of responsibilities

I have alot of stories to update you about it soon

fe aman Allah

Moments of my life

2008-11-27T10:59:00.011+02:00

Its the 27th of November year ago a friend passed away and I still feel as if it was just yesterday .
Tuesday was a normal day at my life preparing my self for my clinical exam .
I left the college at 1pm ..I was shocked when I saw an accedent in the hightway none of you can imagin how huge it was !
about 5 cars were adherent to each other , what cause this adherent , it was a track ! it fell down from the bridge to the highway !
when I arrived home I was awfully soryy about thier families and how they can handel with this tragdy .
after a minutes
I got a call from my cousin
he told me that his newly married brother and his wife were at the accident .
His wife (25years old) passed away Immediatly
while my cousin (28 years old) tried to survive untill yesterday...he passed away at 6Am

I spend most of the time with him at the ICU . and there was that baffing question in my mind the whole time ! why we lost alot of young guys in such a car accidents !

I'm really depressed this is the 2nd tough hard experince I had at the ICU.
May Allah Accept their souls and count them among the sala7een

I have pic for that Accident ensha Allah I'll try to post it as soon as I can
fe aman Allah

Happy but with stress

2008-11-01T23:51:00.008+02:00

So excited...

I feel like I'm going to hug every one I meet Its my last month at 4th year after 13 months and one day of continous studying at different hospitals

Its like a miracle...Masageen sana Rab3a will be free soon

Only today I felt like I'm breathing again ..

I feel like Khalas najahet (I pass)

All together ensha Allah will face the finals at the middle of next month Dec.2008 with 3 months duration Hands holding together ensha Allah we'll make it all..pass it with high MARKS... I need your du3a My Diary from the Labour Room at 11AM

My Doctora : Dr.crowded Mind you should be beside me as your friends not beside the lady ..(Raj3a)

Me :don't worry Doc I can hear you ..I can handle it just leave me here I'm oki
later baby girl mabrook mabrook

Raj3a : could you call my husband Younis please Its our 1st baby

Me : oops...Oki whats his number...?

Raj3a: bla bla bla

Me: hello Younis ...its girl

Younis: girl ememem girl oki oki thanks
look like Younis didn't like the news

During my nap at 3:30PM....

tec tac tec tac

Me : hellooo

Looks Younis : Allo khayer nebi Raj3a ?

Oh my ...I just can't believe that...I was like who's Raj3a ?

Me : oh yeah sorry but my social system is closed today and Raj3a not beside me

Only I got tough words from mama about what I've done..enti mashia tagre walla..bla bla bla and baba was like good masha Allah 3alee my daughter made the newly married parents Younis & Raj3a happy
So for me no Comment

Untill the next time

Fe aman Allah

Me,You,Tripoli,Bengo...I love you all

2008-10-17T18:09:00.060+02:00

Salam ....

Thanks for all of you about your comments guys every thing was sweet

After the Eid I was so busy fadaniaaaat and A3raaaaas and alot of stuff every thing was crowded !

Most of you knows what happen in my Last Birthday I had a mobile !! after a long long long zaneeen to baba

Now my chrome is peeling off and I've broke the mirror!! its miserable to look at it ...I just Wanted to make a deal with baba..he didn't let me finish

Just said no more mobiles enough is enough ..Oopis he is mad..

But crowdedMind knows what to do so its my job and you can see it :So what do you think smart right !!

Daida's Draw I love you girl...

There fe Trables was my cousin's wedding & my friend's wedding
I had crazy days I had fun met all the family ..oh guys I love the Zokra I love 3abamber I love this traditional stuff . What made me Trip more amazing and charming .. meeting a good friend I really like ..our meeting was so funny but seriously I like that I was happy with it and sad at the same time don't know when the next time will be , wish you always the best and to get well as soon as you can..

Tripoli's streets ...

I didn't get the time to post about a weird weird weird storm has happened at 29 or 28 of Ramadan at 00.30 AM as I remember it took almost 10 minutes but it made huge damages "wallahi" guys we felt like khalas its the end ..I was at the enternet at that night every thing was quiet quiet quiet but suddenly ( here is my point every thing was quick and sudden with no alarm) turned into windy rainy dusty weather then quiet again 10 minutes only .

the wind broke our window and broke the trees outside ...this storm damaged every thing specially that it was the shopping season you just can imagine what happen every thing was flying and fallen down in the cars & people

the people here kept talking about it untill now and some said that it was ليلة القدر ememe no comment
sobhan Allah... next day of the storm how it was Fe aman Allah ....

someone is talking...

2008-10-10T00:37:00.007+02:00

I can't believe that I'm 21 years old and 45 minutes right right nowso lets say 22 years old sobhan Allah so fast I remember my 1st day at this life I was ....well I can't talk about it.

Its almost 1Am now and after 3 hours I'll fly to Tripoli Its the 1st birthday there...
Thanks for all of you girls for keeping my mobile active in this hour ...
fe aman Allah

Eid Mubarek

2008-09-30T04:06:00.007+02:00

Finally I can have my breakfast at the morning
Like a kid I miss my breakfast I can't wait for the normal days
my grandma sent the bakalwa for us , I was waiting for Al.3abamber العبمبر
she didn't send it that broke my heart

Happy eid my family
Happy eid Asha
Happy eid my neighbors
Happy eid my friends
Happy eid my bloggers
Happy eid for all of you ....

fe aman Allah

2008-09-16T01:35:00.008+02:00

اليوم كان ذكرى استشهاد شيخ الشهداء
وبالأمس القريب توقف الزمن ليسجل أحد المواقف العظيمة عندما ينحني المستعمر خانعا لأرادة الصبر وارادة الصمود معتذرآ لأحفاد المجاهدين الاشاوس رفاق عمر المختار عن ماض المستعمر وفضائعه.....................
فعلا روح الشهيد الشيخ,,شأبيب الرحمه.
my uncle sent to me this pic from Bahrin you can see his pic here too
في امان الله

5 billion .

2008-09-01T21:41:00.014+02:00

Because of my community's exam I was away from every thing even
Withdrew from every day political lifeyesterday before the exam I checked the news
To follow what is happening in Bengo as I used to call it(Benghazi) .

Finally, Italy on its knees and accepted compensation! Yes, it is a precedent in history. Despite all this, we believe tha what Italy offerd us is inadequate compared with years of the obnoxious colonialism . Dufinetly we as a Libyan had suffer a lot during the Italyan colonialism ..Baba's grandfathers has been exiled to the (Ostika island) and Mama's uncles killed too .
I sit for a long time to my grandfather whenever I travelled to Tripoli
Listen to very rare stories about the occupationand how it hurts him untill now when he see the young generation supporting the Italian team as a libyan I guess it is very difficult for us to forget what they've done to our peoples .

The tragedies of colonialism remain in the memory as it is difficult for us as a new generations to forget , particularly if you are lucky to have your grandfather alive so you can travel with him or her to the past ,the time of the occupation.
Some people believe that even if they appologized..they did because they felt sorry and just now their conscience wake up I still can see the tears in my Grandbaba & Grandma's eyes when they are talking about those horrible 32 years .

Finally, I think we have achieved some thing, especially when by the presence of some of our mujahideen in the podium, headed by the son of ( Sheikh Al mujahidee Omar Almoktar) .

I 'd like to thanks Anglo about his last post ..
fe aman Allah

Blessed Ramadan ...................(update)

2008-08-31T14:48:00.004+02:00

I like to wish a Ramadan Mubarak to all my readers,friends,families.

May your Ramadan be full of joy and may Allah accept our intentions.

we have experienced difficulties and pain in the last year.

we'll use this month to turn to our Creator and ask for mercy.

***صحا شربتكم***

I'd like to introduce one of the talents Doctors at my college(old 5thyear)His name is Sabri Ali Al.sonosi ( المنشد صبري علي السنونسي المنصوري)he is part of a competition in Al.shariqa's channel

he needs your support to win this competition here is the link

Fe aman Allah

Community...

2008-08-24T08:41:00.010+02:00

thWell well well
Alive counting the days wanna get over it soon

Trying to understand what happen to me ?
Community sigh..I lost my mind because of it I don't know what to do what to say its sucks we are making alot of visits ..Swege, factories,Hospitals

In every visit we have to fight to get a good bus (with Air coditionr)but because of الفاتح They took all of them to sabha oh man I hate that we are using those huge ugly hot buses damn ..another khahlosha ...

My friends (old 5th year) finished their exams ,waiting for their results to be..Internship oh bloggers seriously that broke my heart

We cant see them anymore at the librery we will miss them all I'll miss you girls so much sobhan Allah دفعة تمشي ودفعة تجي "Wallahi" ya sa3dodkom I got bored khalaaas am over

Tired from the college and the study Tired from being a medical student!!!

In Ramadan we have holiday I didn't wanna this 3otla because It will delay our graduation!!

but ya hasra who will listen.

My final will start at December08,I'll finish at March 09,I started at 1st of Nov2007 can you believe that How we could do this ? we will finish the 4th year at 09 oki what about the 5th year !!Oki Libyano I am in the regret stage cry for me.
I have my Oral next sunday ensha Allah I have to study more and more for that oralI'll leave you with this pics

Its for Bengo... beautiful for the 1st time masha Allah 3aleha every thing is green, I love this greenya reta dema Fateh
Family circle we use it at the community to discuss the emotional and relationship problems without focusing on the individual's pathology the size of the circle indicates importance and distance from others which reflect the degree of emotional closeness include Family,Friends,Pets and bloggers yes yes bloggers we can make it guys you can draw a circle and do like what I did but its only about the bloggers

By the way where is Lebeeya ?

Have you read this ... Its horrible my brother wenga is there too ....ensha Allah nothing will happen to all the Arabic people there.

fe aman Allah

Wishes ...

2008-08-08T12:42:00.007+02:00

Hope you will feel better soon

fe aman Allah

My Neighbors

2008-07-29T08:39:00.038+02:00

so yes ....

I miss yassin Since sunday and I am having alot of problems to believe that our Moroccan neighbor left to Paris for ever .

I'm sure going to miss their great friendliness

They were always so nice to me, and my mama and baba.

They were probably the best neighbors we have ever had

I'll probably regret that I didn't go later on but, I just couldn't handle it right now

They have one boy called yassin

always come over, for hours at a time to play with the girls ,he is smart, polite, wonderful kid

I don't like kids its always annoying me becasue of my sisters used to drive me crezy but this boy means alot for me

ensha Allah one day I'll meet yassin and Shomesa(his mom)

Shomesa is indeed a great cook!

my whole stomach was filled with Al Ragefa(رغيفا) and her Halwieat & The fish masha Allah 3aleha I'll miss her maakla so much.

My family بالفلاقي ضحكو عليا they left to London

left me here in bengo alone with Asha .

My aunt came from Tripoli to be my babysitter I feel sorry for my self I miss my sisters I miss yassin

wow, this is tough

fe aman Allah

Al.Jazeera at my college !!

2008-07-23T23:29:00.010+02:00

Salam
Wednesday's afternoon I spent it at the Librery fighting with the Radiology's books specially that my exam is getting soon (next wednesday)
Librery was quit and calm you can bring your makhda(pillow) with you ,believe me you will sleep in the table, no one will wake you at all specially that all of us at the Old 4th year مافيش حد براني
at that time Khaled Al.Deep form Al.Jazeera show up and said :
please be quit this is Al.Jazera's channel ...keeping on doing and stay in place and
don't look at the camera act like we are not here.
No one knew whats going on there...they said you can watch it next sunday
we' will see what Mr.Khaled will say about our collegeCrowdedMind can't be calm and quiet so I took this Pic for them Its not clear (Mobile's image)
Khaled setting in the 1st table (your right hand) I think he was writing the report !!!
yalla we are waiting for it
I 'll leave you with this joke I like it so much
ماهو تعريف الاكتر حقيقية للعولمة
: موت الأميرةِ ديان و الدليل هو :أميرة إنجليزية مع عشيق مصري بحادث إصطدام في نفق فرنسي، في سيارة ألمانية تعمل بمحرّك هولندي، يقودها بلجيكي والذي كان مخمورا بالويسكي الإسكتلنديِ، متبوعة مباشرةً مِن قِبل المصورين و الصحفيّين الإيطاليينِ، على الدراجات البخاريةِ اليابانيةِ؛ عولجوا مِن قِبل طبيبِ أمريكيِ، يَستعملُ أدويةَ برازيليةَهذا الخبر يُرسَلُ إليك مِن قِبل عربي ، يَستعملُ تقنيةَ بيل جتس، وأنت من المحتمل َتقْرأُ هذا على حاسوبِكَ، الذي يَستعملُ الرقائقَ الالكترونية التايوانيةَ، و شاشة كورية، جمّعَ مِن قِبل العُمّالِ البنغلاديشيينِ في مصنع سنغافوري، و نَقلَ مِن قِبل سواقِ شاحنةِ باكستاني.هذه هي............ العولمة
fe aman Allah

Babysitter

2008-07-18T23:36:00.035+02:00

Salam
Days ago .Ophhhh back to Benghazi
Baba asked me to back because I've to study
I just can't believe that all of the family having fun there and this poor girl should back to study and to take care of Asha ..sorry swety but now I hate you and I hate the medicine.

I am not a babysitter

I had fun in Tripoli it was week but yalla خير من بلاش

My Grandfather's house was crowded with all family , from different ages !

My Uncle came from Holland and my family from Bengo My aunts and other uncles I become wondering what the hell I am doing here!!

Suppose to be among my books!

Another issue bothering me at my granddad's home as my two young sisters was not on equal terms with my uncle's children's, they were more like cat and mice! Therefore you can not imagine how noisy the house was!

At the last day I met Khadijateri by accident in the shop
It took from me moments to decide what I have to do I was like go or not talk or not
then I did It.. was nice to meet her.
as they said صدفة احلا من مية ميعاد
wish I can meet all of you guys ..lebeeya ,maysoon,Dr.enlightened spirit ,ibee ,piccolina,dusk till dawn (DTD),AKAK ,anglolibyan,Brave Heart .
seriously after a year I consider you as a part of my family .

I don't like the Romatic Arabic SMS
I used to replay the sender with بطل كذب but this sms has a nice words..I read it many times .
I would like to share it with you all :

لاتندم علي حب عشته حتي لو صارت ذكري تؤلمك فأذا كانت زهور قد جفت وضاع عبيرها ولم يبقى منها غير الاشواك فلا تنسى انها منحتك عطرا جميلا اسعدك ,لاتكسر ابدا كل الجسور مع من تحب فربما شاءت الاقدار لكم يوم لقاء اخر بعيد مامضي فأذا كان العمر الجميل قد رحل فمن يدري ربما ينتضرك عمر اجمل
fe aman Allah

My Blog's Birthday

2008-07-10T18:47:00.006+02:00

Hi Its my Blog birthday ...

And I'm having the best time here in Tripoli oh I love Tripoli
No more Benghazi no more college no more Radiology

It was Long time sigh .....since October 2007
fe aman Allah

Turkey and the ka7loosha ....still working in this post...

2008-07-06T14:36:00.013+02:00

Salam

(beirn as Turkish said)

How are you people, hows life with you good or bad

It has been busy weeks lately

The 1st day in Turkey was when they won the football match, amazing night..

Turkey is expensive place every thing is expensive
For me I found that shopping in Turkey is a bad idea Its only JOMLA they can't speak arabic or english once you get to the shop they'll say JOMLA JOMLA OUT OUT...
Anyway honestly Turkey is a nice place in the end of April or May not in JUNE

I turned into black burned skin I was cring every day about my look baba mama Ana ka7loosha (كحلوشا ) I tried to avoid the sun but I couldn't it was extremely hot

I started to hear those words hala Iranian Hala (هلا ايراني هلا ) serioulsy I was like Iran no no no stop i'm Libyan 100% Libyan
The best thing in Turkey was Al.Jwame3 .. places you can't descripe masha Allah I' enjoyed inside alot of them peace every where peace
Food there was emememe problem for me I hate meat ..got sick from shawerma.. spent most of the days eating chips and salad and Ayran.

I took the forensic sheets with me thought that I'm going to study ha ha ha but that was in my dreams I did the exam days ago and ensha Allah I'll pass I said ensha Allah because I didn't study this subject ....

At the end I will let the pics talk Besiktas :

Bweok Center (Gwaher Center) In :Misir Carsisi In Eminonu :ya 3ami I love those turtles so much يخمسو علي روحهم 24 ساعة تي هادا شنو يسموه بس

pray time Eminonu Jame3 : sea sickness its normal thing in my life the noisy Yousif ...
Laleli and the best Shawerma seriously This man freak me out(behind the girl) I don't know what he did to my family they couldn't stop eating from his restaurant for me it was the worst restaurant in the world bo lefa in Bengo is better (بوليفة في بنغازي) but baba.. sigh what can I say ...الصبر الصبر قالت خالتي

In my way to that resturant I found this man sleeping I couldn't prevent ,capturing him and convincing baba that the restaurant's owner doing some things in his food to make the people by this way but no one is listening to me .

the last moments in the Airport ...

we are home here from a country trying to be in the European Union to a country their luggage didn't work Thanks Allah that my hand still working... and finally my suitcase didn't escape yahoooo

fe aman Allah

May Allah be with you All

2008-06-25T00:17:00.000+02:00

salam

I tried to post this post yesterday but you know when you're abroad you can't do every thing

anyway :

this post is for my friends in the 5th year

they have their 1st final examintion (Medicine) !

Good luck for all of you specially for the best group in the world A2 group : Sony,Luchka,,OmO,The four N,Hala, Madia,Soo

ensha Allah your clinic will be away from Al.Jamaheria's hospital and be in 7 October as you want

Remember that you did your best and I know it'll be hard summer for all of you

you should pass it I trust you guys and I know that you can do it any where

At the end I'll pray for you all and give you this as gift

fe aman Allah

Emotional words..From Turkey

2008-06-23T21:51:00.004+02:00

Salam

"Chasing Cars"
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay hereIf
I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know whereConfused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

This song is really sweet, lovely, sad and an awesome .
This song is touching my deepest part of heart every time that I hear it again..

Untill the Next Time.

Fe aman Allah

Tbeekha Is Gone

2008-06-19T21:47:00.024+02:00

Salam

Finally the war is OVER...

Mama called every one here in Bengo..

If she put Tbeekha's pic in the streets with a number they'll call her butshe is not listening to me

sigh...

Tbeekha as Lebeeya said.. sent to my cousin (Lollwa 's brother) in Tripoli

they couldn't stop laughing about this slim skinny idiot cat ...

biting marks were every where in her body she was مفجوعة

yalla serioulsy thats better for Tbeekha meskena "wallahi" were hard days for her with Asha.

I'm having another Phobia from the Airports I know you got it right ??

most of you knows what happen Last summer.... bad memories cant fade away at all

I'm going with my Family to Turkey

Of course there is no hoilday for college..I'll be absent simply absent

I get lost from college,lectures,hospitals,librery ...I need break I need to breath again

Do you think that I'm gonna lose it again

At the end I'll leave you with this :

Man robs a bank and takes hostages. He asks the first hostage if he saw him rob the bank. Hostage answers yes. Robber shoots him in the head.
Asks second hostage if he saw him rob the bank.
Hostage answers NO , but my WIFE did.

Girls have you read that ? oh man he didn't want his wife anymore meskena almost looks like Tbeekha ..Damn sorry but some times I hate you men

fe aman Allah

THE ADVERSE EFFECTS OF TECHNOLOGY

2008-06-11T18:48:00.008+02:00

Téléphone Portable + Maïs = Pop-corn - Vidéo

I couldn't stop thinking about my BRAIN....

oh after a while I'll not be able to think

wow that was aswome

If a computer crashes or a cell phone dies, we feel as if we are no longer in communication with the rest of the world. Technology has become so vital to everyday life that it has taken over our lives,I can't imagine my life without it

fe aman Allah

here and there...

2008-06-05T17:42:00.018+02:00

Its my Friend's Birthday ....Dr.Daida

You are a dreamer at heart dear and everyone loves you for it..Wish you a lovely day even if its friday no college no hospital thats what I hate my birthday this year will be like you.. Friday oh sooo bored .. اللهم لا شماته ... keep going in every thing butterfly

and Happy Birthday....................

another hot topic ..week ago I got a call from baba telling me that his friend David want to send me a cat !!.. so the deal was by this way
"send it without telling mama"

I thought that he'll hold this serect but didn't work as usuall, he called her ...she told him by this way don't bring that cat here Asha is enough and enough is enough

days later we got that box with a letter for mama inside it :

I apologize in advance for dropping this on you but I accepted a kitten from Tripo as a gift unfortunately the other Cat's keep attacking this kitten.

I am afraid it will die as it is a house Cat not a wild Cat and no one will look after it while I am way,,,,I know that this family will look after it well and it will find love so hopefully you will not be too upset....I am sure it will settle in with you very quickly and be so happy it will be good company for asha and grow into a very beautiful cat

I hope that you are not too angry and upset with me

by the way her name is snowy

All the very best Dave Regards to All.

good company for Asha!!!

seriously I can't stop laughing about it...we've got a war here

Asha's pupils are widely dilated

she is a monster she attacked snowy millions of time Asha's stalking, chasing, pouncing, biting, and scratching that snowy

snowy can't do nothing but running and screaming woooook waaaaaak mew mew

so we locked the doors both of them can't see each other ...

I didn't like that Dull Idiot snowy

mama lost her temper and she is mad at me at baba at Dave , she is looking for a family now to adapt snowy....

Thats it for now

fe aman Allah

Tedious tasks was hard to take

2008-05-31T21:57:00.026+02:00

Life got complicated in May when a increased workload impacts your personal plan you'll be restless and find it hard to settle down to do your job
This month I was productive no tendency to be lazy Thanks Allah

Well laughing is a good start
My 1st day at Al.Naher's Hopspital (ophthalmology) was like a camp or wait maybe something more horrible than a camp !!! very organised hospital !! cameras every where we can't talk about anyone (teaching staff) they'll catch us !!
this hospital made me respect the time & how to deal with it

In the past I told you that I'm in love with Medicine (Neurololgy) but now I've got some thing about ophtalmology I don't know but for us (women) it looks interesting especially for the future I can go home early and have a normal life like any person but It s difficult to be in this hospital they can't choose everyone lets say ensha Allah I'll.

I was worry about the exam it was the 1st step the 1st clinical examination !! so I should pass in it .... anger rises to the surface I was unclear about how to deal with it !!
not because its hard no its easy subject,its nice thats what I am told, I've imagined my self in it in the future ensha Allah but the fear was from the Doctors ..most of them they're not helping at all in the clinic !!
The other problem that in this month we couldn't see squint cases (kids) because it was the final exams for the schools, my phobia was squint untill I got squinting eye from thinking about squint, squint,squint, hola, hola, hola
Seriously I tried to calm my self but I couldn't, In the past I used to do things in the exam's morning like my nails, oh!!! I love them, but here since the 1st day they told us no nails, no make up, no mobiles, no rest, no food, how could I calm myself ?

The only thing that I have to do in this morning is to hug asha (My Cat) before I leave.

I left and the shock was that My Dr was Dr.M damn! I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw my name in his list! no way, I cant change it, so I said yalla! its my fate to be with him.

We did the MCQ (Multiple Choice Question) then they called my name folana bint folan come to Dr.M ... I gave him crest extra whiting smile and I was thinking about the case : Cataratct, pseudoaphakia, aphakia but not a squint, because I knew from outside that there's no squint in the exam. And here's the surprise Dr.M said by this way ta3ali ya ABLA examine this boy!.

What a wonderfull surprise he was a squinting boy, "walllahi" I couldn't believe there he was with glasses looking at me like, hehe heh, you deserve that ya3ni the Dr M was Oki I don't have problem with that, but both of them, thats too much !.

I asked the boy whats your name ? he said Moutaz ...sorry for that but deep down inside I told him عطك دعوا يا معتز شن جابك بس اليوم انت

Every thing was complicated Dr.M he is good man, I really respect him, but during the exam he put me against the wall and killed me, with his questions about the squint, untill I told him! ya 3ami el Rajel stop! it is my eyes that are squinted from your questions, ooooph.
anyway in the end I passed thanks to Allah.

Ensha Allah in the final I l will pass again, but not with Dr.M because it'll be hard to survive again

In June I'll be in the forensic phase, ensha Allah it looks interesting at least they don't have Doctors! like the ophi's Drs

Thanks for your du3a ..seriously its nice to have you all my fav Libyan Bloggers

fe aman Allah

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

2008-05-26T22:34:00.008+02:00

Salam
Seriously I missed you all
I need your du3a I've got my 1st clinical exam next Saturday

Its Ophthalmology !!
Its ophiii Its unbelivable subject
ensha Allah I'll update after that about every thing, just pray for me that my doctor will be good with me because the Drs here are horrible wallahi horrible..
I've got the ophtalmo's phobia...Don't laugh but mom didn't let me go with her to the supermarket anymore!! I can't stop looking at the people's eyes !!

thanks Dr.enlightened spirit for your offlines and mabrook for the baby girl masha Allah looks gorgouse,dusk till dawn (DTD) and ibee thanks for you too

goodluck for you too Dr.Daida , ASMA : you know Exams are nasty little things increasing our stress levels. Then we take them and the fear of getting the results starts to build

so I'm holding my breathe for that moment and I'll use my brain

yalla now I have to go
fe aman Allah

DeeP DowN InsiDe....

2008-04-20T19:21:00.009+02:00

I'm sick of the books,papers,hopitals,making up so much bulls**t

I feel incredibly let down ...

fe aman Allah

Shahat & Sosa

2008-04-18T18:58:00.005+02:00

Salam
Because of unknown reasons I can't upload pics in my blog so I put them in the flicker you can see them all...here

I have alot of questions....
why there is alot of ignorant pieces in shahat ?
why they used to write in the walls ?
they write names,numbers,songs....Goverment should make walls for those gifted people they should empty their power in specific walls not in shahat's walls I love Graffiti,I wish I can do it If there is area for it but I can't come to place like this and write my name or my link at it .Its ridiculous and not polite at all
at the end I knew that Shahat is a treasure.....
fe aman Allah

Addicted

2008-04-03T21:25:00.010+02:00

Salam

I missed you people
my connection getting worse from the source
I'm at enternet caffe and I feel like do i have to be here ? oki bloggers you made me addicted!! all of that because of you .

the last month at the surgery, last month at the new 4th year(Rab3a el jdeda) without exams im nothing without them
I'll move to the the old 4th year (Rab3a el gdema) next month enshaAllah more stress more lectures more hard life all of that will back again.

my favourite street (Al Hadaik) here in Bengo changed it to one way !!

they killed me with this decision yalla maybe its better who knows

I'm here because i need your help my fellow bloggers

I'm addicted to Alpenliebe caramel I can't live without it

my friend kept telling me :ya bent snonek snonek stop eating it but i couldn't I feel like im not normal without it

anyone can help me here !!

in my area there's no more caramel,my friends started to bring it for me because they couldn't handle that depressed face (me)

seriously i need help !

yalla now wish me that our net service will back again

fe aman Allah

Mabrook

2008-03-28T21:17:00.008+02:00

Congratulation for all of you the 5th medical year !!
yesterday they made the Dof3a's picture mashaAllah 3alehom with no doubt they were beautiful and passionate
it was emotional.. we had alot of pics together I wish I can show you all the pictures but you know bla bla bla
words will never explain.... the boys were like 3ersaan the girls were gorgeous too proud of you all and that other people should congratulate you for your hard work and efforts.
their final exam will start in the 25 of June
wish you all the best and the best and the best specially for the best group A2 : Luchka,OmO,Sony, The four N (you got the same name) ,Madia........ect
mabrook for you all
Revel in this moment of glory!
Fe aman Allah

Crezy week

2008-03-26T23:36:00.014+02:00

Salam
how are you all
ensha Allah every thing is oki with you my week was crezy I have many things to say .

Baba's friend from Germany came with his daughter lena to see the east of Libya shahat and Sosa it was a good chance for me to back again after my 1st visit in August07.

At the evening we made a tour in Bengo ,I took them for a medical meeting at the Da3wa's Buliding..
There with the family I met my friends,and one of the best Cardiac Doctors,
he made a nice conversation with my family..what shocked me he was with my sister when she told him that medicine is boring , he said that yes its boring..

next day we went to shahat and sosa it was a magic place I enjoyed there ,Almost it was dusty but I like it no sun which its better for me but my problem was with see sickness or mountain sickness wait no its car sickness thats why I hate cars make me sick
meskeen baba had to stop every hour to refresh me

I fall in the water when I was collecting stones for my friends, every body laughed
whatever I got those stones for my friends..

I'm interesting about the history of these stones ,from where they came and how ? the beach hasn't sand has only a stones with different colors and shapes

they were nice people specially Lena i enjoyed with her she is cute girl....she started to learn some Arabic words that was really funny she was saying Sadieeg(friend),shokraa(thanks).Asfa(sorry) and alot of words.. I'm gonna miss her soo much

I have the worst connection in this world,,I wish i can put the pics of sosa shahat and my stones but its more than difficult and when I press add image the page didn't open at all
do you have any idea why ?

thats its for my week I know that Its alot and you're asking for Panadol now sorry
as lena said :
Ich Liebe Dich all

fe aman Allah

Happy Birthday BaBa

2008-03-21T08:44:00.001+02:00

Its Baba's Birthday ,Mom's Day,Children's Day

bring them all a present !!
Oki seriously I don't have money & its the end of the month I'm broke !! maybe a kiss will e enough or I'll borrow from mama because the present for her aslaa
I'm kidding

I have the BESTEST BABA....
I know thatI'm bothering you always by shouting Baba baba baba
replaying with :yes yes yes but you know this is our game Boss
you still looks as young as ever and has more energy than most of us
We are very proud of our baba. He is loved by all who meet him and interact with him
53 years plus or minus a day or two still counts as 53 years, masha Allah I hope to have as much energy when I'm 53 as my bab does,It's amazing to watch him in action, He never seems to stop.
your cake will be waiting for you Dear
I don't know why I couldn't add image to this post ?

fe aman Allah

Expired

2008-03-13T00:33:00.009+02:00

Lately I've been wondering about some thing...
I can't change other people, no matter how hard I try.

Once I was with my friend looking for a case we asked one of the interns about her simply she told us EXPIRED .
Seriously...I was standing looking at her and repeated my question ...my friend told me you didn't hear ? lets go EXPIRED .
wallahi I thought she is talking about choclate or another canned food ...EXPIRED..!
they call any one pass away expired

I don't like the term at all , seething with anger inside when I hear it..my friends told me that I'm right its not a good term but what we can do its the avaible term
I'm not happy about the ways things have been going

what do you think..?
nevertheless this is the way things are..
some times Silence is golden

fe aman Allah

she is happy..single again !!!

2008-03-04T23:17:00.017+02:00

A persone who become emotional involved as me couldn't handle that those kittens were weak one after one they died infront of me of course im not a vet

the last handsome white male died yesterday...By the way all of them were males !!
We were in shock we couldn't believe that all the 5 will die ya 3ami Me & my brother did a crezy thing by bringing that damn cat behind mom's back and when we did they died seriously they died,,is it that fair !!
I'm mad at them ...one of them should fight to stay and do not make my parents look at us like : we win !!!
What killed me more I thought that our spoiled cat will scream will cry will shout hello my kids I lost them woook anything any sign prove that she's alone without them but no she was running playing with my sisters as nothing has happened I think she's happy she's single again no responsibility I'm free I'm asha
its my fault not yours

woke up today feeling a little grumpy and out of sorts and I could well aspire to nothing more strenuous than spending the day alone without any distractions
so Al Jala Hospital Benghazi the solution for my midnight madness it was magic place all of the emergency cases will be in it..And I have a kind of energy and magnetism about my self
I have to revel in this moment of glory!

nevertheless this is the way things are

By the way Happy birthday Lollwa I hope you enjoyed !!

fe aman Allah

Yahoooo yaaaay MoMi asha is here

2008-02-29T23:31:00.010+02:00

Quick update to tell you that asha jabaat 5 kittens just 3 were aliveI'll tell you more as soon as I can.
I'm so happy
fe aman Allah
friday.... I woke up when mom was above my head immediatly i knew her facial expression unbelievable cause words were not clear but when I heard asha I knew it,,she was tired and she was bleeding ! Oops mama sorry I put her at narrow room downstairs with some warm stuff but untill 6pm,nothing happen So i let her out..but at 22pm she startded her labourIt was really nice thing The 1st sound the 1st mew meow meow, I was with my brother behind the door ! so we decided to get inside to know how many kittens we have !!She was tired,,We found 3 kittens only one was alive later we found another 2 kittens.
in the next morning I went to feed her can you believe that she attacked me !!
mew mew mew like getout getout getout !
I was with you ya shena for about 4 years how you dare to dothis with me?but thanks Allah things got better laterin this morning one of the kittens died I don't know why !! I wish I can so right now we got 2 white gorgouse noisy kittens is it cute ?

Lollwa was wondering about the names :
lollwa: وشن سميتو المزااييد
Lollwa: (laughing)
lollwa: باشا وماشا وميشا على وزنك انتي
Noci: مش عارفا اني شنو هما اصلا
lollwa: ههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههه
Noci: مش عارفا شنو جابت
lollwa: هههههههههههههههههههه
lollwa: ههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههه
lollwa: ههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههههه
Noci: تضحكي
Dr.Daida called me too from SaudiArabia to ask about her too.
thanks all of you hunter,hillary,BMW,Rehab,Leila,ptosis,seb for your SMS
Love you all
thats it
fe aman Allah

Bored....

2008-02-25T21:38:00.015+02:00

Salam
I miss the fataresh at my college !
they're in a holiday for 2 weeks,,when they were here I was complaining
(I hate college its Zahma cause of those kids !bla bla bla )
forget that I was like them happy with this new life !
Right now college like a hell empty,,,just we (new4thyear) and the 5th year hanging in it !(hanging no its not a nice word) we're bored in it ! Rather deserted !
how we gonna handle this in the summer ?
My sister got her holiday too I hate her,she went to Tripoli I miss Tripoli !!!

surgery is sucks
I'm often tell my family that I belongs to surgery (years ago) but not anymore .
sucks how can i be ! I didn't like it,,,Disgusted !! made me depressed
Right now I'm attending the last days at the Urology ..the Drs are ignorant,rather rude !

I did crezy decision today when I left the teaching and went for another hospital to be with my favourite Drs at the MEDICINE .
I've been out of the medicine since 4 weeks ago ! its not a bad thing right ? to leave the teaching and to go where i belong:x ?

congratulation for all of you old 4thyear for their results...most of them passed and they're moving for another step for the 5tyear..I'm happy for you girls you deserve that all
Sorry for the people who didn't make it and 3ogbalna !
Only one thing could make this life +ve for me seriously to look at asha when she eat !
she's eating !!! can't stop eating ! and screaming if she saw me eating ! and her weight mashaAllah increased ...I don't have any pics right now because it didn't work with me !!!

by the way check this link :
http://www.moheet.com/show_news.aspx?nid=91606&pg=21

yalla now sure you got headach ! walkie Talkie
fe aman Allah

Asha's Birthday & 3abtash's meet !!

2008-02-14T00:00:00.007+02:00

salam
Its Asha's 4th birthday
not active anymore,didn't stop eating yesterday she ate baklawa I was like oh my cat ...she is so hungry or what ? but she is not just having kittens drive her crezy ! with every thing
I hate what I did !!
Meow ... Meow ... Meow
today I spend a nice crezy day at college we laughed alot about every thing in it
specially it was the last day for the 1st.2nd,3rd year..they are lucky
when I back I found a wonderful surprise from Tripoli my uncle came, with him 3bamber for me (can't come without it ) I felt so happy today .
another thing at 5:30PM another crezy girl came to my home.. didn't see her since Aug.2nd.07 was 3abtash , my best friend BMW & Dr.Daida came too
we had fun and we talked about all of you (the best libyan bloggers)
they laughed about asha's story and her new look and her cake (oh I forget I made a cake for her )

I knew alot of things today that this life not about living about memories that make the joy of our life and I knew that all of us have been through hard and rough times We should be full of love stay simple yet happy when things go wrong don't go blue just pray and say I'll get through always remember that Allah loves me and you too !! I'm so +ve

I love this song its by Blackmore's Night
Wish You Were Here...
Me, oh, my country man,Wish You Were Here...
I Wish You Were Here...Don't you know, the snow is getting colder,
And I miss you like hell,And I'm feeling blue...
Wish You Were Here...Me, oh, my country man,Wish You Were Here...
I Wish You Were Here...Don't you know, the snow is getting colder,
And I miss you like hell,And I'm feeling blue...
I've got feelings for you,Do you still feel the same?
From the first time I laid my eyes on you,
I felt joy of living,I saw heaven in your eyes...In your eyes...
Wish you were here...Me, oh, my country man,
Wish You Were Here...I Wish You Were Here...
Don't you know the snow is getting colder,
And I miss you like hell...And I'm feeling blue...
I miss your laugh, I miss your smile,I miss everything about you...
Every second's like a minute,Every minute's like a dayWhen you're far away...
The snow is getting colder, baby,
I Wish You Were Here...A battlefield of love and fear,
And I Wish You Were Here...I've got feelings for you,
From the first time I laid my eyes on you...
Wish You Were Here...Me, oh, my country man,Wish You Were Here...
I Wish You Were Here...Wish You Were Here...Don't you know, the snow is getting colder,
And I miss you like hell,And I'm feeling blue...
Wish You Were Here...Wish You Were Here...Wish You Were Here...

Bless you all
Fe aman Allah

واو الناموس

2008-02-08T10:13:00.001+02:00

Salam
It rained here yesterday I can't believe that I woke up at 5.30AM to pray and It was raining I couldn't believe my eyes thanks Allah more and more but at 8AM its gone !
I felt so bad but right now now now now Its Raininnnnng I'm so happy again
At the end of January my brother and his team at the sea scout went to waa Al.namous
(واو الناموس)
Al.Leebya FM went with them for this Trip
They should back but somhow they were missing for about 3 days,their cell phones were off All the families were so worry about their fate At the 4th day I was sure that there's some thing wrongwith them.
when he called us it was 23.56PM said those words Mama I'm oki I'm oki he didn't tell us what happen there, we were enough with those words Im oki
after 3days we knew that one of the cars did an accident there in the middle of the desert It took a day to make the car able to drive again
later that car lost at the desert again so they stoped for about 6 hours to wait for it
Here's the pics ....he tease me with this trip

More details in this web
http://benscouts.com/vb/showthread.php?t=238

http://www.libyanboyscout.com/muntada/showthread.php?t=13394

fe aman Allah

Oops, she is pregnant ! And now what ?

2008-02-02T22:55:00.005+02:00

salam

How are you all ?

Meow ... Meow ... Meow! And once more: Meow!!! The results of 65 days of cat pregnancy! A nest of cute little kittens

most of you knew that we made revolution last month

me and my brother brought a 3arees (Groom) for asha when my parenst went abroad

We didn't tell moma about that & she was always wondering why asha not so active as before ? we were like WE DON'T KNOW MAMA.

I was n't sure about the pregnancy,I just wonted to be sure, cat gives few clues that she is pregnant
but days ago things started to be more clear and we' were so afraid how we gonna tell her that !

the shock was when she saw the pic at the desktop

Mama: who is that ? All of us : Asha's husband

I had to tell her the truth,she got mad so mad so so so mad at us

Right now my mind crowded I'm so worry about her,mama's crisis over but asha not yet

she became aggresive I can't hold her

her Birthday gonna be at Feb.14.08

and she's giving birth about 5 days later enshaAllah .

I don't know what should i do ? I'm in trouble real trouble ,,one kitty is enough & female one ,her name is Hana (هانا) oh if they were 2 oh my ...too

much 3 cats at home

oki my dear cousin Lollwa I'll send you one so we can't cut Selt Alra7em right ? another

one for Lebeeya & ema & my dear Piccolina

oh guys I can't have more than 2 at home too much

I have a box placed in a location that asha frequently visits.,they told me that Once labor begins, your cat will start to purr rhythmically and breathe heavily !!!!

I'm confused and you can see that from the names that I'm changin every day at my blog ! from alittle girl to a crowded mind !

Bengo is DRY no rain in it its so sunny outside you can hardly breathe I wish that it can rain again to clean old, toxic memories I can'tbelieve that its Feb and there is no Rain

today was my 1st day at the surgery ,I went to the hospital,I found no teaching staff al 7amdo Li Allah cause of the 5th year exam immediatly i back home.

I'm gonna miss the medicine I had fun in it , me & my friends were more than active maybe thats way I find my self feeling a little sad - and wondering why, as there's no real reason to feel this way.as this often happens after a major activity period.

I'm gonna miss the Drs

The Jamaheria's hospital which i belong has the best Drs which like :

Dr.Jamal. Al. Talhee(د.جمال الطلحي)

Dr.Said El Zunni (د.سعيد الزني)

Dr.Abdhamed El.zwawee.(د.عبد الحميد الزواوي)

Dr.MohamedMangosh(د.محمد المنقوش)

7th october's Hospital like : Dr.Al zaroog (د.الزروق)

Dr.N.Madi(د.نجيب مادي)

Dr.A.swalem(د.احمد سوالم)

there's more but those I owe them alot .

I'm gonne set a new goal for my self and move on to the surgery !

fe aman Allah

sigh,,,,Loyal !

2008-01-31T20:58:00.000+02:00

Salam
the old adress its not available anymore replace it with this :
http://loyal86.blogspot.com/
so this my window right now loyal I don't know why I called it with this, I didn't even think about other possibilities ! I tried for 10 minutes to get some thing out of my mind but It didnt work every second loyal was in the top !
anyway never ever ever ever think that you gonna ignore this !

fe aman Allah

some body had a hard days waaak its me

2008-01-20T22:00:00.010+02:00

I sent my stethoscope abroad oki don't laugh but my dear fesforia (fisfis)
Collapsed suddenly.
every body was asking about it like waaaa men ween hadi ? hada sheno ?
no body was saying MashaAllah at all
I wonted to hear the heart sounds, deaf no sounds nothing to hear,they hit my little fisfis
I was screaming infront of the patient fisfis fisfis what happen to you ? sure fisfis can't answer me.
I went to the technical men but they were telling me Doctora you can buy this and we've got this and this waaaaaak I wanna my fisfis back to me
so I decided to send it abroad and yeah fisfis right now in Canada.

another bad thing when your Dr didn't stop talking from 9am Untill 2pm when the visitors of the patient came to tell that its 2PM ,,our facial expresstion was n't enough for him to stop talking I know I know its good for us but I got limits I got power and this power got battery and my battery finished at 12 pm so you can imagine how i spent the other 2 hours And he was asking them ( get out its teaching room) we were like please come in come in its your time e, and When I left guess what happen another stupid idiot one stoped his car behind me the park was empty alot of places so why this idiot did this ? Mom was calling hellloo its 2pm ? I wonted to cry I wanna go home , Thanks Allah Im still thinking , called my friends to help,so we pushed the car together ahaha I left .

The bad days still here when you think that its off and you gonna sleep at the morning no body gonna bother you but suddenly this dream fade away at 7.30AM ,some body was calling, wonted to bury her alive she was 3abtash : hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii i'm home,I got that tinnitus in my ears from her ! waaa she's crezy,I didn't see her untill now maybe tomorrow maybe after who knows .

I'm actually under load I don't have exams should be nice right ? they postponed every thing untill the end of this year (old 4th year) ,I don't know what to do what to say I'm so confused many things came to my life lately made me feel like I've to take some quick decisions !

I screwed up every thing I'm dull idiot big fat loser sorry but im out of my shape today !

we went to Al.kwefia hospitalwith the college's bus ! every body enjoyed we laughed alot about that the bus was scary one I thought that Im gonna die today

today fera's Birthday my sister

happy birthday my lovely sweetheart gorgoues cake please wish me that my fisfis will get well soon

feaman Allah

It our year !

2008-01-08T18:57:00.000+02:00

MOHARRAM
THE FIRST MONTH OF ISLAMIC CALENDAR
Happy new year to all the Muslims in the world
Tomorrow is the beginning of the New Hijiri year :
قال تعالى: (إن عدة الشهور عند الله اثنا عشر شهرا في كتاب الله يوم خلق السموات والأرض منها أربعة حرم ذلك الدين القيم فلا
تظلموا فيهن أنفسكم ). ومحرم من الأشهر الحرم قال النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم: (السنة اثنا عشر شهرا منها أربعة حرم ثلاث متواليات : ذو القعدة، وذو الحجة، والمحرم، ورجب مضر الذي بين جمادى وشعبان) رواه البخاري.
My Grandma told me that she used to do something , put some white substance at the doors (العتبة) Its nice thing It means like you gonna start new white year
I used to put some suger or farina,Dad always laughing about this ridiculous thing
as I told but for me I enjoy with it so do it guys and you gonna start new white year
Happy New year to all Muslims again and I wish this year would be better for the Muslim world ,no fighting ,no poverty , a better hope to regain a lost glory inshaAllah
fe aman Allah

Happy Birthday Gorgouse Libyan

2007-12-26T17:26:00.001+02:00

I hope it will be the best birthday yet, bringing you happiness you’ll never forget.

Fe aman Allah

Its Eid .

2007-12-18T21:35:00.001+02:00

I wonted to wish you and your family a wonderful Eid may your Eid be full of love,

happiness,laugher,peace,and lots of shwaya !!

fe aman Allah

Bankina..another world ..another life .

2007-12-15T06:15:00.001+02:00

salam
I was chatting with 3abtash telling her that my life's bored !,in fact we were مريض متكي علي ميت but she was doing great as Dr.phil : telling me that I've to change my routine,I get lost from it

its the same things every day ! there is nothing I can do ,I can't go to the beach because its cold and I'll get sick(mama's orders).

Friday's morning Dad told me that : I wanna go to البنكينا (Al.Bankina) to buy fish for the lunch ,Immediatly I told him wait Im going with you .

this post its for all the Libyanbloggers which lives abroad (specially the Bengo's site )

If they missed their city they will like this post so 3abtash Brave Heart dusk till dawn (DTD) , ph ,Dr.Ireland this post its for you guys.

Once I told Brave Heart at his blog that I love bankina and he replayed me with :

love Bankina, it sounds strange,i told u be4 , u Doctors r strange people:-P

yeah I love it ,its crowded place ,I went there once , my camera wasn't with me

yesterday I brought it ,I enjoyed the city was empty ,typical its friday !

some of the pics from the car so don't ask me why they're weird !

thats what I have till now ,I wish that you enjoyed

Eid is knocking again its not my fav one I don't like meat but its nice to have the Eid even if its Meat's Eid.

its smelly one yek needs work to back!

fe aman Allah

No more Car's phobia

2007-12-12T17:45:00.000+02:00

Quick update

I'm driving the car alone for the 1st time after a long war with dadi
meskeen I killed him but finally I did it
still got that Car's Phobia specially at the rush hour from 1pm to 2pm waaaaak traffic could be horrendous
I got Allah'll protect me , and my friends in the last giving me their support in the 1st week and the security system at the 7th of Oct's hospital 's park wallahi they are giving me the best place to stop in it .
3abtash
Im fine sis and doing great just busy and the SMS didn't work days ago thats
cause of the Madar's company ,I saw your cousin days ago,,, by the way hows shafshofa ? missed our chat I'll return every thing to my Desktop as soon as I can sweety

Guys thats it for my last adventure and I'll leave you with this :

The Advantage of Being an ARAB
An old Arab lived close to New York City for more than 40 years.One day, he decided that he would love to plant potatoes and herbs in hisgarden,but he knew he was alone and too old and weak.His son was in college in Paris, so the old man sent him an e-mail explaining the problem:
"Beloved son, I am very sad, because I can't plant potatoes in my garden.I am sure, if only you were here, that you would help me and dig up the garden for me.I love you, your father."The following day, the old man received a response e-mail from his son:
"Beloved father, please don't touch the garden. That is where I have hidden' the THING.' I love you, too, Ahmed."
At 4pm the FBI and the Rangers visited the house of the old man and took the whole garden apart,searching every inch. But they couldn't find anything.Disappointed, they left the house.The next day, the old man received another e-mail from his son:
"Beloved father, I hope the garden is dug up by now and you can plant your potatoes.That is all I could do for you from here.
Your loving son, Ahmed".

untill the next time :
fe aman Allah

Just wanna talk ! could I ?

2007-12-04T23:48:00.004+02:00

salam
how are you guys ?
hows your life all? I feel like i didn't talk since long time I love this place I feel better after posting or leaving comments
Im lucky to have you all" wallahi "

Last wednesday was my last day At Al.Jamaheria's

hospital ,It was a wonderful month

I had alot of friendship at it,I started to check on them every day and the number started to increase i was like crezy girl wanna check all of the floors

I was under hard funny situations

like when we were taking the history from Egyption patient was denying every thing about his illness he told us I removed the pancrease but later he said the spleen? so I asked him Sir please be specific what organ you removed ?? he told me by this way

متفهميش انتي الطحال هونفسا البنكرياس؟

"wallahi" I wonted to laugh infront of him but I couldn't because I have to respect my patient but my friends started to blame me infront of him CA concentrate its the same ya CA.

I hate them ,they didn't even let me convince him that its not the same I know he'll deny again but at least he'll not look at me as a stupid girl

his disease was Bilharzia so we have to ask about a travel history to Egypt and if he swam there ? he told me laaaa we can't swim there because Egypt got Bilharzia ,what a smart patient knows his illness and the reason too ,If I had this case at my exam I'll hang my self after killing him .

another one he was refusing to answer us but when he saw me oh you can't believe what happen he thought that im his daughter how cute it was .

another libyan patient married from Egyption women when we asked him about his illness he started to cry and suddenlly his wafe came عملتو ايه بكيتووووه ياولاد الايه

she was screaming with her loud voice بكيتوه حيوديكم في داهيا حتت عيال بتتعلم فيه بتبكي ليه ايه بس الي ناقصك

one of my friends told her with loud voice too excuse me WE ARE A DR GIVE US SOME RESPECT WHY WE SHOULD TEAR YOUR HUSBAND ?

sigh,,,,she left.

Another case was mine what can i say about her ,,,,I came in the early morning to prepare my history for my Dr when I came to her , didn't talk yet she said اطلعي برا

I told her ...I just wanna.....she said again براااااااااااااااااااااااا

I get out Quickly I told my friends she refused me and they started to laugh as usual took a breathe , back again : انا مش قلتلك ا طلعي برا انتي بي اي لغة حتفهمي براااااااااااااا

I told her look you can't do that I know you're not oki but your Dr gave me your name and he'll come later to see what I did with you so please just relax and im sure we'll over this

she did it again برااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااا

so i went out to the Dr and i left my friends infront of her room

I told him that she's not cooperating at all baaaaaaaaaaraaaaaaaa

I went with my Dr to her and what surprised me I found one of the boys talking to her

when she talked to the Dr , told him I wont him not her !

I was like I don't like what but "wallahi" she didn't even talk to me ,why she did that I don't know but you have to know she's not young she's 40 and married too !

Dr.Said El Zunni.(دكتور سعيد الزني) one of the best neurologists here chose me to present a tutorial about the headach I was excited ,He asked me to collect every thing about it so I back home and I thought that my connection still going alright but what a wonderful day they cut it !

so my research based on books only ,at that morning I didn't thought that I'll set in his place and he'll set with my friends,I enjoyed alot with that discussion and I wish I can do it again with Dr.Said..he is a generous Dr I have never seen a Dr like him before

I'll miss this hospital , miss my cats there ,they are so cute they used to me and I used to feed them at the morning but asha still number one .

Right now im at 7th of October's hospital so sucks one i didnot like at all ,bas what should i do its my life should be here for a month then I'll be in another place

by the way guys finally our widow gotta a husband ,he's active man mashaAllah and I told her don't tell him about the death of your xx.hudsbands and ask him to don't fight with asha or to tease her

good girl sure she got it

fe aman Allah .

A Friend Died Today.....

2007-11-27T21:04:00.003+02:00

انا لله وانا اليه راجعون
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
يا أيتها النفس المطمئنة إرجعي إلي ربك راضيةَ مرضية فأذخلي في عبادي و أدخلي في جنتي"
صدق الله العلي العظيم
There are very few things in life that are harder to face than the sudden death of someone,even someone you just sort of know, the loss of their life can make you feel like you have an enormous hole inside yourself.
You may feel like you're crying all the time, and at the same time,
I cried my self to sleep
ان لله وان اليه راجعون
We gonna miss you all.
and may Allah forgive her and give patience to her family and her friends .

(to Allah we belong and to him we return).

Please come out of your coma

2007-11-26T23:46:00.002+02:00

Salam all
Last thursday was a normal day untill I went to the ICU by accident
I went there because I wonted to see hows the ICU looks and it was the 1st time to get in .
while I was looking at the patients I saw a girl was in a deep deep sleep (coma) I knew her !
all of that was a very hard to believe I used to see her healthy active girl ,no body told me that she's here I went to the Dr to ask him about her name and I was right its her .
sobhana Allah she was fine week ago
I got strange feeling I can't even tell about it ,weird life ! you just set watch act waaw its seems easy but its not life sucks
how to forget life sucks
How many times have you said this to yourself ? things just suck,
you haven't washed in a while and are probably better off dead.
I'm not stranger to the "my life sucks" period,I'd drag myself out of bed sometime after noon
go for a long walk thinking about how much life sicked !crash feeling,depressed,and repeat .
I kept doing the same over and over since thursday
my emotions kept telling me "Damn this sucks!"
I wished that I didn't get to that Damn ICU ,I wished that I knew before because if I knew I would never ever getin to see her in that case
I know its our life and I've to deal with it but its really hard to face those kind of stuff.
I back home and I was repeating alot of Questions why why why ? she did her best to be in the medicine and she was studying for her final sobhanaAllah
no body can makes his fate at all
Last night at 4:00am , all of us prayed kiyam layel for her Even 3abtash joined us so please pray for her with us

fe aman Allah

Unbelievable surprise !

2007-11-06T15:13:00.000+02:00

salam all
I FOUND MY BAG
I'm shocked beyond believe
Today was a terrible day for me ,,no hospitals and Im just have 4 lectures at my college start at 11am
Me and dad went to the Airport
to find out whats the latest with regard to My Bag 's compensation .
Its become a habite that every month we have a visit trip to Binina's Airport
but dadi adviced me to forget about it .

however again we went to the airport asking for the mahrosa .
Unfortunate most of our people if they lost their luggage they just consider it as a bad luck but for me NO,there is a procedure we should follow it .
I've told that we still looking for your bag ! (we'll call you don't call us )
(I hate this sentence)

again they allowed me to check the main store (as they said the MAIN )
when we attend to leave a guy asked us have you check Al.boraq's store ?
I said why Al.boraq? I've traveled on Libyan Arab ? During the month of
August I asked one of the employee whether they have only one store ? he said yes only one !
which contain all missing luggage for all air companies
so Mr.A.F told us that Boraq Air Line got their own store ! and I'll company you .

At Al.Boraq's building I met another good man called Mr.M we told him the story he was hesitant to open that store for me , went to ask his boss
later he came and I was counting the mintes,,
please can you meet my boss upstairs he wont to know some detailes ?
I was like okiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Sir no problem
we went to that generous man ,,he was the Manager there
I told him my story and how im falling apart and my doupt was that my suitcase lost its sticker number so its unknown now and maybe its with you ?
Mr.A the manager took us to that narrow store and they opened it
They started to check and suddenly my mahrosa was Screaming im here im here
I can't talk about my facial expression I was like a dull girl couldn't believe her eyes
Mr.A couldn't believe that too,alot of people came and It started to be crowded place and I was under the shock , dad was shocked too .

All of us ( my bag too) went upstairs
what I found that my mahrosa gotta 3 stickers
one for Al.Boraq and 2 belongs to Al.Qataria Airline (3abtash are you behind that )
I opend it , found missing stuff like a personal documents were missing I wann ask why ? there is question of why do they do all this? The 'why' is really about saying 'Is this it? And if this is it, do I really want it?'"
yeah I want those doucuments its nice things to have them again but
it looks that I cant be tama3a to have every thing
yalla Allah gaaleb
my fota ? they didn't find any foat to take a shower with it so they took mine wallahi
its really funny ,
my bag was dirty dirty oh more than dirty

we finished every thing with Al.Boraq and they promised me to investigate about my mahrosa's story
its good to see that there are good people which makes me very proud
Later me and dad and Mr.A.F went
to the libyan Air line's office to tell them about their mess
I told them that I need some answers whats the helll my bag was doing there in Al.Boraq's company ...? I replayed with it happens.......
Mr.A.F was my saver today and he was a good guy me and dad thanked him alot about his noble

at 11.30am couldn't drive ,I found more than 10 missed calls from my friends ,I went to college and when they saw me they said ha what did they pay ? but I shocked them when I told what happen
the calls started to increase well guys you have to know that I got phones disease yeah yeah even If I changed it but its always quiet (deaf)no rings no calls no sms I thought that its new so maybe It'll heal this silence and break the rules its incredible hehehe but haram wallahi today it was ringing and I answering and mabroook yaaaaaaaaaaaay yahooooooo
every body was happy about that mahrosa thanks Allah about every thing ,my Grandma and
ba cousins uncles aunts called me all its really nice thing I wished that I could celebrate with them they wont the zarda ?but how can I send it to them ?

I wanna post some supportive comments

Lebeeya
Don't ever loose hope. Inshallah you get a call very soon from the airport informing you that they have found your suitcase :)
Maya, I should have put up a picture of a suitcase for you! I really hope you get your suitcase back.
by the way does anybody in contact with her ? is she alright ? enshaAllah
a_akak
i felt the frustration from your half
Mr: Madi
The most funniest thing in all of this that(they guess that your bag right now in Jordan ) .
Brave Heart
hahaha, dont worry girl, it is not u,
dusk till dawn (DTD)
sorry u lost faith in finding ur suitcase.i know its anoying thing all ur private things there
3abtash
MABROOK MAYA U FOUND UR BAG
your last post was crezy ya majnona thanks Alot

oki guys thanks alot for your support and I promise Im not gonna lose bags anymore hehehe
fe aman Allah

Hospital's life

2007-11-03T14:27:00.003+02:00

Salam
finally we finished our rush weeks at college ,started to be crowded with those young boys and girls ,more than 3000 student started their medical Journey in it
I don't know how ?its small college can't carry those fataresh (sorry)
we are so old infront of them I can't believe that
anyway today it was my 1st day at Al.Jamaheria's hospital
I was confused,I heard alot of stuff about the 1st meeting with your Dr
oki sorry Drs but they told us that most of them are rude and they love to insult you infront of every body that made me feel like oh noooo please Allah help us

I didn't use to be in contact with the people ,seems a wrong thing ! Im not unsociable but
I've never been in that hospital before It was huge one ,you can see all the social class in it
But that didn't bother me at all, I was happy ,
its better to see every thing not to be a social blind girl ,,I met my group 10 girls and 5 boys we are not so close friends but It was better to be alone in this 6 months at least to discover my
skills so thanks guys for your advice
my heart beats started to increase when I saw 2 of our Drs but no way they were more than cute can you believe that they said
welcome ,anastona,and other sweet words !
At that time I hated every troublous moment I lived in it
they sent us to Dr.Mohamed(دكتور محمد لاطيوش) ,,he was generous man
My 1st patient at my clinical life was a female with aplastic anemia
she didn't cooperate but thanks Allah every thing was alright
me and my friends took her history and other important information
Dr.Mohamed mashaAllah was beside us ,he told us : Don't ask any ridiculous question like are you alcohol abuse because its not social habitat ,stay inthe right side of your patient and other things
a 5th year friend told me today that she lost her mobile and her friend lost
her stethoscope thats mean be careful
I gotta a bright yellow stethoscope attracted most of the eyes at the hospital
I got it from dadi's friend he sent it for me When he heard that Im in the medical shcool
thanks Mr. for it.
I enjoyed today Thanks Allah and I know If i work hard and keep +ve things'll come good in the end ,,,,Its long year yeah long one but I've never been one to give up
Thanks Alot
fe aman Allah

My Libyan tortoises

2007-10-30T16:15:00.001+02:00

Salam all

hows the Hibernnation going ?

It's been a really busy weeks for all of us

I saw a new post for anglolibyan about the Libyan tortoises

and because he's a big fan I wonted to send him my Libyan tortoises Family.

when I was a kid....I searched about many information considered about them ,,there was a huge interest inside me but years made me forget my enthusiast !

baba started to bring them the 1st one was in 1991 , It was like a date between them

should be done in every trip...I mean he was sure that he'll find a tortoise in the middle of the road waiting for him ,back to say ya maya I got new one ...the number started to increase day after day untill 14 it was too much so I sent some of them to Tripoli to my uncles and aunts and I was like : feed them don't ignore them talk to them bla bla bla that was years ago

now I got 6 Bahja,saree3,Tunisia,Tareek,Noci,khlwa .

These animals are so rare in nature that we trying to breed them so we can have a stock of these animals also in captivity..hope so

Testudo Kleinmanni called by this name in both Libya and Egypt ,this kind protected by the Convention on International Trade in Endangered Species, or CITES.

( the highest protection),Trade in such animals, many of which are threatened with extinction.

I heard from a friend that a passenger on a flight from Libya to Rome's Leonardo Airport waiting impatiently for his suitcase. They stopped to check his suitcase, and found 275 of the rare tortoises, all but four of whom were alive,he packed them in a bag.

they sequestered these animals, those smugglers not aware of what they were selling !

the Italian government was working with Libyan to return some of the tortoises to the Tripoli.

Its really sad to think about our Tortoises and their shameful fate ,

I was happy month ago when I saw In Al.Jazeraa channel some thing about them ..they said that Libyan's coast gotta the best enviroment for those econmic rarity Tortoises,,And Finally Libya Started to look after them in Seirt which its the best place for them as I heard

Another thing I heard about (the song of the whale's ship ) all seems great ,this ship wanna protect some kind of the beach's animals ,one of them Our Turtle ......those turtles are threatened with extiction too ..I remember that Every summer started to be a frustrated Tradition for me to find it ..died from those fishermen ,they're using illicit way ..exploding the area beside them to get what they need ..this'll lead to the death of this wonderfull turtles

..they used their blood in the treatment of Asthma disease

I don't know if that blood will dilate his\her alveoli ?

the Goverment now working in it since 2005 and Its great last summer I didn't see those fishermen and I didn't see the cadavers thanks Allah

this ship they knew that 15 kind of Dlophin in the Mediterranean sea Only 11 living in Serit's coast

Now anglo waked this respect for this shy tortoise and made me remember the best time with them

so lets save our Libyan tortoises

fe aman Allah

Happy Birthday 3abtash

2007-10-25T23:34:00.001+02:00

Salam every body

today its Oct.26.07 and its 3abtash 's birthday

she's away , depressed cause of that

All what I wont to say to you my friend

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ......

2 birthdays ago was 2005 , Ramadan

I surprised asha with a small blue handbag

she started to use this bag ,,3 days before eid fil 7adaik area 1AM

3abatsh was in the Front seat

she wanted to help her mom to put some halaweeyat in the trunk ,,she took her new phone out of her pocket and put it in that bag and return it to the seat ,got out of the car ,didn't close the door ....turned her back for 3 seconds and some guy came and grabbed the bag !

her sister was in the car screaming .

started to run after him..some guys heard her and cane to help ,they got into their car started to drive after him but it didn't work

she cried for days after that and she called her number the next day a guy said : I bought this number 1 month ago ...that liar

The bag had all her keys inside, credit cards..health care cards,social insurance card,3pounds.

some of her cousins I remember fill 7adaik area they all spread out and started to look for her bag and that guy ! ya3ani fil kol Zanga

some guyz even went toDubai street to look

Itreally funny when she called me I was laughing and telling her It doen't matter you'll get new one don't worry

and I was telling her its just a bag don't make it bigger but I knew that When I lost My Bag

last August Its awful feeling

Happy birthday 3abtash wishing that there's more happiness in your life and 3agbal another 20 year and another 20 year and another 20 year=80yr oki add another 20 for the 100

fe aman Allah

My 1st Day at the 4th year !

2007-10-18T17:26:00.002+02:00

salam guys
finally I'm having my Haleeb o shahee at the morning :x
thanks Mrs.shomesa for the traditional moroccan halaweiat
its yummy ;;)

my college started ,,...2 weeks lectures then we gonna start the war at the hospitals
my best friend told me that they divided us into 2 groups medicine and surgery both of us were in the medicine !
and we have to be in another internal groups each one contain 15 student it looks that everything going to be alright in my life... sigh
yesterday I went there , It was my 1st day I came late,,, when I get in it was funny every body was talking in groups and all about number 15
thanks Allah thats all of them were busy with this trouble so no BACTERIA
I started to talk to my best friend BMW ,with us was another good friend trying to convince us to change with him to the surgery ! it was difficult choice ?
alarming my mind it was impotant And I have to choose the right girls and the right boys ! for me my group was always great but now i changed my mind :
one of the girls said : oh CA folaana with us I hate her Sorry me or her ?
anothe girl : what :-O folaan with us oh no I can't handle it he hates the girls (antione).
Our order was to make a mixed groups ,,If one of the girls left she'll take her friend
so I have to look for new member and If i found new one,,,,another old one'll refuse the new one its like I'm treating a kids or unmature people ?
All what I wont from them why they can't forget their grudge ?
I Swear I saw different weird people ,, the 1st impresstion not always the right
what can I do ? get fight with them all and be with unknown people ?
tomorrow I'll try to make new negotiation....I'm thinking about changin my mind and working in the negotiation field.

3abtash sent me this joke enjoy with it :

An Arab needed a heart transplant, but prior to the surgery the doctors needed to store his blood type in case the need arises.
Because the gentleman had a rare type of blood, it couldn't be found locally. So the call went out to a number of countries.
Finally, a Jew was located who had similar type of the blood who willingly donated his blood to the Arab.
After the surgery, the Arab sent the Jew a thank you card for giving his blood along with an expensive piece of diamond and a new Rolls Royce car as a token of his appreciation. Unfortunately, the Arab had to go through a corrective surgery once again.
His doctors telephoned the Jew who was more than happy to donate his blood again.
After the second surgery, the Arab sent the Jew a thank you card and a jar of Almond Roca sweets.
The Jew was shocked to see that the Arab this time did not reciprocate much the Jew 's kind gesture as he has done previously. So he phoned the Arab and asked him why he had expressed his appreciation in not so generous manner. The Arab replied "Ya habibi, I have Jewish blood now, remember..!?"

fe aman Allah

My Journey when its over !

2007-10-11T03:55:00.002+02:00

Its the last day here in Libya and I'm happy tomorrow its
eid ......here neighbors started to send their halaweeaaat (home made sweet) its traditional ...so we have to return our halaweat In their dishes too, including Baklawa and 3ABAMBER ...DHL EXPRESS DELIVERY I love 3abamber.......

I wont to say Thanks for all of you my family ,3abtash,BMW,AA,madi,brave,DTD,akak,Pico,ibee,brave

You made my day more than Fancy one

yesterday at the afternoon I changed my mind about N76 for many reasons .

at Aftar my brother was bothering me with some words trying to wake up my anger

like (haram has no new mobile ,you deserve what happen,I happy for you ,,,blablabla )

he was driving me crezy because its aftar time and I don't wanna talk about that mobile

dad came and they started to make propaganda

I was screaming oki right that phone's sucks didn't deserve me at all and stuff like these words !

we prayed together and when I came to set I found N76 in my chair ....opps

it was a wonderfull surprise guys no body can imagine what happen I couldn't eat my aftar

and I wonted to leave al tarawe7 cause of it but I didn't.

after al tarawe7 dad's friend invited us ..

its a new small garden infront of the beach in Al Fadeel's Hotel ,It was a lovely place so quiet too

This cat I found it in my chair in that Garden !!! I'm attracted or what ?

al Fadel's hotel.

then We went to Dubai's street Oh this street was crowded !!!

I saw many of my friends at my college get lost from sayin hi,kef halek,kol sana wa enta taib,bla bla bla .

I didn't get to the shops cause of that ! some thing has happend while I was standing beside one of the shops waiting for mom ...dad was with me ....but suddenly a fight was going around and it was a horror movie ,,,,,in seconds I lost my parents and that shop closed his garage because of the fight and the police couldn't control the situation ! my mobile was without numbers ! and I'm anti numbers I don't have my parents numbers yet ....and its getting worst...

but الحمدلله the police hold them and I found them,,,they were in the shop and they couldn't getout .,Rabi yehdehom en sha Allah

kol sana wa ento taibeen again ,,,,Eid mobarek enshaAllah enjoy with every thing in it

I've to go now ........

fe aman Allah

My Birthday !!!!

2007-10-10T01:47:00.004+02:00

Here we are again
Its my birthday ...the night its still quiet no crezy stuff till now except 3abtash and BMW
were the 1st ...(Its October 10th in qatar Happy 21st Bday ) I got those sms then my mobile turned off again I hate it
my cell phone is out the service not because there is no service
i dont know whats wrong with it. it turns of every 10 seconds and i have to turn it back on its so annoying... I have to change it
I was trying days ago to send some mails to dad to tell him about my unfortunate life

I ruptured my internal madness :

Hello my Boss
Hows your work ?
look dadi I can't handle it any more so please I'm in love with some thing and I can't waste your time but I wont you to help me with it ..its really killing me I can't sleep I can't eat
Dad Nokia 76 Dad I'm hurt beyond words !
Dad I'm trying to convince you to make you convince mama later
But I know that its Impossible I know your answer :crowdedMind you wanna clothes,books,blablabla
Poor me
anyway thanks
love you alot
fe aman Allah

he replayed me later with this

Hi CrowdedMind
have you read the criticisms on N 76 , Please read it .

just bought it yesterday.. for about USD429 and EURO302 i'll post any information if i find any problems.
wilsen
I've had this phone 3 monthes. The chrome was peeling off. I gave it to the warranty service. The new chrome parts had peeled off one month later!!! So I brought the phone back to the shop, and became my money back.
Email
Dal
why the color selver of that phone is easy to remove i use 3 week the color is chance the color red ok is not change in my opion is not ok to buy
sorry maya choose another one !
see you soon
Oki that msg broke my heart I want that mobile I don't care If that chrome peeled off ! and I didn't tell him to search for the disadvantage !
I'm really desperate in my birthday !
my brother and sister came to me and they gave me my birthday's present !
both of them brought accessories that was funny .....I knew that it'll be
I was taking my sister's accessories in the last 2 months and didn't buy, cause I'm still waiting for My Bag , It looks In my dreams !
thanks sister and brotherfor this delightful jewelry.

aha please If you know anything about N76 please be my saver and help me !? is it great or horror ?

fe aman Allah .

THE LOVE STORY OF RALPH & EDNA

2007-10-08T23:11:00.000+02:00

salam

Hows the last days with you all ?

I'm sososos excited I missed you my life

anyway I didn't stop laughing when I got this Msg

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have

Ralph and Edna were both patients in a mental hospital.

One day... While they were walking past the hospital swimming pool, Ralph suddenly jumped into the deep end. He sank to the bottom of the pool and stayed there. Edna promptly jumped in to save him. She swam to the bottom and pulled him out.

When the Head Nurse Director became aware of Edna's heroic act she immediately ordered her to be discharged from the hospital as she now considered her to be mentally stable. When she went to tell Edna the news, she said, 'Edna, I have good news and bad news.' The good news is you're being discharged since you were able to rationally respond to a crisis by jumping in and saving the life of the person you love. I have concluded that your act displays sound mindedness.

The bad news is, Ralph hung himself in the bathroom with his bathrobe belt right after you saved him... I am so sorry,... but he's dead.' Edna replied... 'He didn't hang himself, I put him there to dry.'

'How soon can I go home?'

For me its funny could draw the smile in your face simply she's really smart to do it and stupid to tell them about it

fe aman Allah

يوم القدس

2007-10-05T22:39:00.000+02:00

fe aman Allah

Smart Beggar

2007-10-02T12:44:00.001+02:00

Salam all
I would like to share with you some thing has happened with us week ago
It was about a man or a smart beggar !
one of Ramadan's nights dad & mom, were outside dad wonted to park the car inside the garage, when a nice Nissan made car stopped infront of our house .
quite big family was in side the car , Lady and four sleepy kids .and the man asked dadi for a minute !It was 1:15AM I will tell you what has happend
السلام عليكم والنبي ياخوي نبي حق بنزينا عشان كنا في عزي في درنة ومروحين توا لي سبها ومعناش حق بنزينا
Sabha ! Dad shouted , you were in Darna and you headed to Sabha !! and you dont have a money for the fuel and you've kids with you ?It is very risky sir! Dadi backed to the car and wasn't very happy to give him what he wonted ,but mom felt sorry for the kids ...he gaved him some money,quikely left the place .
when I told the story I thought that should happened on the main busystreets not here were very quite neighbourhood We realized that he was a smart beggar.

you can't believe what has happend in the next day at 2PM I went with dad to do some thing in a busy area called Ras 3beeda (راس عبيدة) I was driving in a double way, when a black fancyNissan car was coming towards me , dad shouted , not a gain ! What I said ?
The same fraudster dadi said, open your window, he is the same man , same sleepy kids , some of them not there ? suddenly the funcy Nissan stopped beside me ,looked to it,collected my thoughts in a second, and he started to tlak to me , It looks like he did not recognise dadi

he said :
والني يأختي حني كنا في عزي في درنة وتوا..............
Dad:انت مازلت ممشيت
Man:اه
Dad:انت امس جيتني قدام حوشي وحكيتيلي ينفس القصة وعطيتك حق البنزينا كيف مزال ممشيتيش
they felt confused the women very embarrassed ,didn't look at all ,and turned her face to the other way and the man already prepaired his answer
Man:واللهي ياخوي كيف طلعنا من الورشة الكمبيون كان فيها وتوا نبو نستقدو لي سبها
and he asked again for a money !
Dad:.....أسف يا استاذ امس عطيتك و
he didn't wait ,he escaped , he was afraid I think and His fuel was full !
That man 100% was a beggar and a smart one he can win the kindness of the Libyan people and utilize from Ramadan because people are giving alot in Ramadan
I'm sure that he got more than he deserve and they were part of a gang maybe ?
In this case we can do nothing because we gave him and we wonted that ,he didn't bother us or insistence ...he was asking and we gave but as the matter of fact ,he was lying ,fraudster .
Thats it for now
fe aman Allah

Car's Phobia

2007-08-30T13:39:00.002+02:00

salamat

It's been a really busy weeks.

Baba teaching me how to drive since 2005 and because of my study at Bengo I'm always having those lessons and really feel so sorry for him , reaallllly stupid girl

almost I'm good driver , still saying almost But I got some thing called Phobia in dealing with around about !!Its really horror specially the one beside my college,,Most of my friends driving & waiting for my surprise when she could got the enough confidence to pass it

And now I'm driving it but I'm always looking for some body to ride it with me But not asha Because she hates cars ,,,well I know I have to be strong,,,after Ramadan my study gonna start en sha Allah ,,I have to ,,If I didn't I'm gonna search for a driver !!

And They don't wanna buy a fancy car like Nissan waaaaak Its adorable ,,specially that small one and he's saying soorry swety I can't buy it for you **حتكسريها حرام خسارة فيك ** you gonna destroy it!!!

well I don't know whats the matter with those fathers ...I'm still trying to be good driver and to get that Nissan .

It kills me

cute ha

Life is difficult
Nissan soooooo sporty

as driving in all our mediterranean countaries ,Driving in bengo is a night mare,so I have to forget that Nissan and think about how to be a good dirver even If it was ****

I got a mail from dadi was telling me about this accident

Look at the first picture and you can see where this guy broke through the crash barrier (right side where the people are standing on the road).

His truck left the road, travelling from right to left. He flipped end-over-end, across the culvert outlet and landed on the left side of it.

Now look at the 2nd picture;

sigh..Allah Bless us all Its Terrible accident

Fe aman Allah

My Diary

2007-08-24T00:19:00.000+02:00

I spend a wonderfull days at راس الهلال It was magic,glamorous,brilliant,charming,amazing,fantastic place and I'm gonna try to be there again ان شاءالله but the proplem that at those days I was thinking about my BAG ,at the last day my bag didn't get out of my head It was like Mania or some thing I couldn't control! any way I'm waiting Since Aug.13.o7 And I started to buy the missing stuff!!I didn't lose hope but I need those things I feel like I'm gonna start from 0000000 .My friends telling me It's just simple things but It's not ...I used to use them Specially My شيكشاكة !ohh I miss it ! and other things gotta a value ! about راس الهلال I've got many pics but I didn't get the time to post them all .
thats about my bag and راس الهلال
while I was collecting my thoughts I've heard mom calling أأأأأأأششششاااااا And here we've got new story 3 months ago ,,Dad bought birds ! I don't know their names but I remember that my friend told me that they are kind of parrot **small one** well those birds were the worst at all they're singing all the time well mom's visitors were bothering أشا my lovely cat and they started to sing for her and I'm sure that they were saying ***hello asha we're happy we're together we love each other poor asha you're alone ehehehe **asha couldn't handle this situation ,,so it was like a competition !I punished asha alot of times ....we found her above their cage !! and they were happy for this punishment Later Ashoosha my smart cat she convinced us that those birds are not important for her and she feels better when they're singing for her but later She killed the male the green one And he died from the 1st attack,,I was telling them **she didn't mean it she was playing with him, ,, he's a damn smart actor ! he died immediately !!
I love animals and I love asha too and I feel sorry for him But I understand that she did the right thing ,,I know that his wife alone right nowbut at least I feel better no more songs at dawn .And mom will bring another male and we gonna start this war again momi .
cheers honey asha

fe aman Allah

I Miss My Bag

2007-08-15T00:44:00.001+02:00

I think I'm in curse with planes
yeh yeh yeh I'm in ,,,,,,Last night I took a ticket back to bengo I was happy because I'm gonna be In a trip for sosa Shahat and other wonderfull places I couldn't go with my family because they hate Planes and I hate Cars so they left their bags with me and they asked me to be in bengo after them well till now that was great !
I was wondering which plane I'll take ??
In 2005 Accident has happened to me In البراق they back and It was horror minutes !
so last Ramadan I decided to fly with الليبية In fact it was an Orded from the Goverment **my parent** so My plane was 7am so they cancel it because of the door( it didn't close )I said oki thats fine and they postponed till 12Pm and It didn't work I flight at 3pm then we back because of some thing worng they didn't say about it ,,,I wonted to back to bengo as soon as I can because of My exam and It was Ramadan so It was complicated process so I changed my ticket when I discoverd that الافريقية gonna fly at 6pm so I flight with it .
May 2007 I flight with الافريقية but when I back to bengo my plane was at 6.30PM
and we filght at 23 PM ..I was with my dad and he was saying I'm sure you've got some thing with the libyan planes !
and the problem that nothing happen in Bengo I mean all the problems happens from Tripo I don't know why maybe because I got bored from being unstable ! or It's hurt when I'm leaving every thing in the back and I don't know if I can back again or not ...Or just Its getting worse some times and you just wanna say THATS IT THAT'S IT i'm really upset low depressed .

any way I flight last Tuesday and I back August.13.07 to bengo ! and with me 5 BAGS I couldn't convince the goverment that those are toooooooo much for me and I'm oki with my small brown bag
any way we flight at 6.30 PM and I was in shock NO DELAY later I was afraid because it was abnormal I swear
when I saw dadi he was saying maya I can't believe my eyes No DELAY !
Later I couldn't find My gorgouse bag ! till now every body in bengo Tripo even Sabha (I don't know why ) looking for this bag ? no body knows what happen ,,,? my uncle called me and he told me ""they guess that your bag right now in Jorden ""!
May be you gonna say it's oki Bag clothes other silly things but for me They means alot
I'm just wondering do Am I ? In curse with planes ! I don't believe in them but last night I felt that Maybe why not !

And I took my decision no more planes no more planes
Thats enought
Fe aman Allah

I PASS

2007-08-08T19:06:00.001+02:00

Salam all

last Monday was my result and I did it I pass that made me feel better

and getting well because I was afraid from the Micro ,,, Anyway we went to college ,me and my friends started to express our feeling by screaming and laughing FRIENDS from the 4th year came and they started to say Mabroooke and don't be sooo happy for this because it's not worth any more staying at college better than hospitals !

they started to stay bad things about hospitals and the Drs there .

well me and my friends felt like a car crashed us and saying oki whats going on Here it's supposed to be happy for this ending...When they left I told my friends Oh girls they were soooooooo PLOITE !

I'm just wondering for any Dr or medical Student read my Blog ! I wanna know is that right?staying at college better .

Now I'm afraid from hospitals and I don't wanna think about that .

Finally I left bengo back to Tripo and I'm having fun here with the family .

Fe aman Allah

العرب الطبية

2007-08-01T10:32:00.001+02:00

this is my college here In Bengo ,,The only thing that I love in it That it's always clean, that makes me feel refresh,And the people here are very friendly lovely helping In the began I didn't like them I thought that they're just people like to ask and to get in things not in their Business but later I knew that they're asking because they care,love and other things missing in this world !
Thanks for them all . fe aman Allah

My Diary

2007-07-30T16:36:00.002+02:00

The last day at my collage came ! it was yesterday ,,,,,,we finished them and we still waiting for the result !!!!***the hardest & the toughen moment at all *** My family started their hoilday but I've to wait for the result in Benghazi !! it seems hard to me.

I couldn't go with them for Londone because there's some problems in the British council
Made me say : ****hello no body comfort my disturbed soul***

Anyway these things it started to be normal in my life ! so My dad asked me to back to tripoli after my result ,,he was sure that i'm gonna do it ! actually I did great in the pharmacology and double great in the pathology half great in the Parasitology BUT MY NIGHTMARE was MICROBIOLOGY ,,I hate it the exam was sucks it was 139MCQ and 20 matching in just 3 hours I couldn't review the MCQ and the matching I don't remmeber what i've done in it ! thats really sucks And in lab exam I was afraid from complement fixation Test I was reviewing it with most of my friends before the exam and when it started another Test came it called ELISA but I did some thing no body can forgive me about it ,I didn't answer ELISA ,,I was thinking about the complement fixation test in every minute so i wrote its information in ELISA and when i get out I was happy because i did it ,I was telling my friends about my genius paper ,Later they shocked me by saying maya wake up It was ELISA !!
I'm sure 100 % that the examiner'll say this stupid girl she's not deserving to stay here or even to have a 2nd chance !
I'm blogging right now to feel better or to forget the Micro .

By the way yesterday I discovered that Alboraq's price 115LD ,,,3 months ago was 95LD
That's hot !!

Fe aman Allah

Salam every body

2007-07-10T19:10:00.001+02:00

Salam
new Libyan blogger
need your support
Im still fighting with this to know how to post but I think Im doing great
This is my اشا : She was with me since May.2004 which it's the 1st year in my medical life

she prefer to sleep with any body even if that on your back ! thats her mood when the weather is hot !

thats what i hate ! and she is complaining (you waked me I hate you ).

She is in love with stupid street cat ! I hate him ! till now she refused all the cats cause of him

But no way ASHA don't even dream about him !

Fe Aman Allah.